Summoning an eighties-era Madonna, Cameron Diaz appears in a new V Magazine fashion spread smoking cigarettes, wearing tattoos, knee high boots and a pointy black bra fashioned from gaffer’s tape. Not only toughening up her image for the shoot, but also in real life, the actress talks about abandoning her golden girl image, putting off children and taking on more challenging roles such as the mother of a cancer-stricken Abigail Breslin in My Mother’s Keeper.

I don’t make movies for my ego. I do them for my personal growth and to give something to an audience. I’m not going to be the 23-year-old ingénue again. If I tried to hold on to that, I’d be a pretty unhappy individual.

The fall preview issue hits newsstands tomorrow, but you can the see the spread today in the gallery below.